I've just come in from outside where I have been gazing at the last embers
of my first bonfire of the season, although I did get a head start one night
last week at Dan's. I like to have a fire going while I'm working in the yard
so I can sit by it to wind down after the work is finished. The quiet time is
restful and pensive. I am always amazed
by the free flowing thoughts that cavort in and out of my mind and how they
reflect my journey. Of course, the
memory floodgates are wide open and that is always bittersweet but for the most
part, what I feel is gratitude. Time was when I never could have imagined such
quiet; our house and yard so still. How
glad I am that 'something' told me to cherish all that long-ago family noise
even when it seemed hectic to the point of exhaustion and my patience wore
thin.
Tonight, sitting by the fire, I was comparing today with last Saturday and
remembering some of the thoughts I was having then. It was a similarly
beautiful warm and sunny day and I was pitifully lost in some of North
Carolina's rolling, rural country roads...alone, with a malfunctioning GPS and
a phone that was about to lose power. No
maps...just the printed directions I kept on my lap while I was driving. I was
doing fine until the route numbers merged, then the one I was following divided
into two directions, or so it seemed. To make a long story short, let me just
say that what was to be a three hour trip took six hours because of all the
back tracking I had to do! I was so
exasperated and tired that, after while, I almost lost my composure. I knew it was time to pull over, take a deep
breath and say a prayer. With that, familiar
coping mechanisms began to reveal themselves and I began to focus less on the fact
that I had a problem and more on what my options were to find a solution. The first option, of course, was attitude
since that is something I could control immediately. A positive attitude really does lighten any
burden. I thought about all the
beautiful countryside I had seen so far that I might have otherwise missed. I remembered that God doesn’t make mistakes –
that we are always exactly where we are supposed to be even when we don’t think
so. I even smiled as I remembered; too, how
one of my kids used to say, “Whenever we go with you, Mom, it’s always an
adventure.” I thought, “Yes, that’s it,
I’m having an adventure.” Aside from
the fact that the extra legs of this journey were cutting into time with my
family, why shouldn’t I have an
adventure, I wondered? What difference did
it make whether I was here or there? If
I were home, I’d be happily working in the yard but why not have an adventure
instead? I can always do yardwork. Looking at my predicament in this way helped
me relax and even chuckle at myself a little bit.
Today, I smiled a lot as I worked happily in the yard with visions of last
Saturday’s adventure now added to my journey’s memories.
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