I seem to be struggling these days to find the stamina to keep abreast of this summer's emotional roller coaster. I call it "keeping my head above water." I have felt my vitality ebb and flow as if it were riding on a pendulum in full swing. The 'highs' have been oh, so exhilaratingly thrilling and the 'lows' have been oh, so anxiously stressful, and full of sadness! But then, that's the reality of life and its parallels, isn't it? And I don't recall a guarantee anywhere in any of God's promises that would indicate that those parallels would be doled out in equal increments in accordance with what we might deem 'fair.' Then, what would we learn? How would we grow? And what would be the point?
Thankfully, for the most part, I have learned to be tuned in to the warning signs that occur whenever I am about to hop on that 'pendulum.' Most of the time, that is. Sometimes (like now) I have been so immersed in my own busyness that the ride had already begun before I realized I am a passenger! When that happens, I know it's time to practice what I preach, so to speak, and to start using the 'tools' that have been so carefully honed; the ones that will rebuild the power of positive thinking tower. So...lately, even though it may appear that I have been functioning in business-as-usual mode, I have actually been "holed up" inside (literally as well as metaphorically) using my 'tools' and reminding myself that I am responsible for my own choices. When in doubt, I simply choose thankfulness because there is always, always something to be thankful for.
There is no doubt in my mind that I will emerge at some point with a reasonable facsimile of my usual energy intact. I do hope it's soon, though, because this 'swim' is taking too long and my head is getting tired!
Maybe the turning point is here; I did shove myself outside to wrestle with an overgrown barberry bush today......and judging by the heap of prunings I had, I think I won! That's always a good sign.
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